kawan baru..

aku dapat kawan baru.. dia muncul tiba-tiba kat kedai n kite pun jadi kawan.. he is a nice guy.. funny.. have a lot of story to tell and very open minded.. its nice to finally have someone to talk to.. tapi yang problem nyer.. mamat ni sgtlah ramai peminat.. bile sume peminat dia aware yang dia ade kawan baru.. sume start add aku as their fren kat fb.. bile aku tgk mutual fren.. sume mamat ni nyer kawan..minah2 ni sume sebok nak tahu ape relationship aku ngan mamat ni.. pening kepala dibuat nyer.. akhirnye aku tak layan sorang pun.. sume skali aku ignore.. suka hati dia org je nak jadi kawan aku tapi tak kenal aku langsung..

##im out##

the competition..

lame giler tak tulis kat blog.. bz sangat2.. rase cam nak patah tulang2 sume.. nasib baik tak patah lagi..lately ade satu perlumbaan yang aku perlu menang.. bile pikir balik, perlu menang atau ego aku yang tinggi ni yang taknak mengalah dgn dia.. aku tak pasti.. tapi tetap aku nak lawan gak..tak pernah terlintas nak jadikan dia competitor aku.. dia bukan sepatutnye jadi lawan.. kite patut berpakat dalam hal ni.. tapi tiba2 dia jadi lawan aku.. indirectly dia dah declare war.. aku tak tau nak buat ape.. nak decide ape.. tapi aku pasti satu perkara.. tuhan dah tentukan sape pemenang perlumbaan ni.. kalau aku kalah aku terima.. walaupun seboleh-bolehnye aku nak menang.. lebih2 lagi biler lawan aku ialah dia.. takde senjata untuk aku lawan dia.. yang ade cuma diri sendiri.. i just be my self n try my best to win the competiton.. as a risk taker im willing to compete.. tapi biler pikir balik, rase cam takde chance nak menang..whatever it is.. im ready to war.. n im gonna win it!!.. wish me luck..

##im out##

im pregnant..

dua hari ni aku nyer mood mmg teruk giler.. ni sume pasal byk sgt keje dan byk sgt halangan utk aku siapkan keje2 tu..hari ni dapat msg dari alia.. my best friend since we were 14..lia text me.. "hi babe.. how r u.. just wanna tell u tht.. IM PREGNANT.. lalalala.." aku nyer terkejut tak terkate.. terus call dia.. n she started laughing bile dgr aku ckp ello.. aku mintak confirmation.. betul ke dia pregnant.. n she said yes.. rase happy giler, happy sgt2.. untuk lia n her hubby.. lia has gone to another phase of life now.. from being a girl, a wife and now she is expecting.. she gonna deliver her baby soon.. n i cant wait for it..tibe2 hilang sume bad mood sejak 2 hari yg lepas... rase happy je.. i cant stop smiling.. sume ni sebab one msg from my best friend.. congrats lia.. may u always happy with ur life.. and all the best for ur future..

*already set a date to meet lia n zura to celeberate this happy news.. cant wait to see u guys.. :-)

##im out##

they obeyed me...

hihihi.. dua org mamat yang asyik call tu dah stop calling.. dia org dah tak nak ganggu aku lagi.. puncanye.. aku ni jenis yg easily get angry.. so kalau pagi2 phone aku dah tak henti2 bunyi mmg 90% confirm aku bad mood hari tu.. so today morning pun camtu.. dua ekor antu ni kept calling dari time aku switch on the phone which was around 8am.. can u believe it? pukul 8 pagi aku dah dapat prank calls.. so wat i did.. i called one of them.. n asked who is he.. i didnt wait for the answer, i asked again, why r u keep calling me.. n then before hanging up.. i said menyusahkan org betul lah..and i said all this rudely.. ya i knw im the one who cannot tolerate rudeness.. but then they were rude to me too.. thts it..no more calls sampai skarang.. hopefully they wont call anymore.. hahaha..

##im out##

bleh tak berhenti call aku??..

ari ni ade dua phone number yang asyik2 call aku.. satu number ni biler aku jawab dia matikan panggilan tu.. yg sorang lagi aku jawab elloo.. dia ckp elloo gak.. tapi tak ckp bende lain.. tension sungguh.. dah tu dua2 antar msg.. "askum.. awak, bleh berkenalan?.." dah tu yg sorang ni call lagi dalam pukul 1 tadi.. bile aku jawab dia letak phone tu.. pastu msg lagi.. tanye.. "awak dah tido ke?" ade gak org yang macam ni.. aku ingat sume org dah tau bersopan santun.. kalau nak berkenalan pun takkan lah antor msg or buat panggilan camtu.. bagi aku..nampak tak ikhlas sungguh.. (this is my personal opinion on this matter).. takkan mungkin aku setuju nak jadi kawan org2 yang mcm ni..

* kalau betul2 nak kawan nape tak call elok2 cakap elok2.. kenal kan diri, bagi tau dari mane dapat phone num aku n then tell me tht u wanna be my fren.. aku rase ade chance 80% yang aku akan accept dia jadi kawan aku.. for guys. if u think by doing this kinda thing u will get the girl u want.. im so sorry to say.. girls now are alot more harder to get..so u gotta try harder in a MUCH MUCH better way.. and for girls.. if u think guys will like u if u keep calling and disturbing them.. let me tell u.. its not working either.. they deserve to be treated in a nicer way.. so people.. dont try to be 'mysterious' by doing this.. nobody will agree with u..at least NOT ME!!

** ni memang menjadi kepantangan aku sejak dulu lagi.. i cant tolerate rude people.. theres no way u will be forgiven or will be treated nicely if u are rude to me.. theres just no way!!.. so people out there.. if u are reading this entry.. please, please please.. think before u do something.. kadang2 kite ingat ape yang kite buat tu ok.. tapi pada org yg menerima tu lain plak.. ade org yg very sensitive ngan bende2 camni.. aku tau aku bukan ratu cantik.. bukan cantik langsung pun.. tapi i think everyone in this world deserve to be treated with full respect, no matter where are they from, wht is their education level and how do they look like.. so skali lagi aku nak ingatkan sesame kite supaya berfikir dulu sebelum buat sesuatu..

*** seingat akulah kan.. kite mesti menghormati semua orang seperti mane yang kite mahu di hormati.. even dalam semua agama yang ade kat dunia ni, ajar bende yang same.. so why cant we do it tht way? just be polite to people and u'll get wat u want.. trust me..

##im out##

He likes me.. Doesn't He?...

ok girls.. this is wat ive read from a website.. i copied and pasted it here.. so let me remind u tht THIS IS NOT MY ARTICLE and not my opinion on this matter ( the matter of whether he likes u or not)..and guys.. if u have anything to comment.. please do so..

He actively takes an interest in you and what you have to say. He's not just nodding and smiling and checking his watch every five minutes like you're trying to sell him life insurance. There's eye contact. He's actively listening. He's asking questions, relating things you say to his own experiences. If he's really good, he'll remember something you said and incorporate it in a future date. Try not to act too surprised.

He's forthcoming. He wants you to know about him. This manifests itself in a bunch of ways. He'll share personal details about himself. He'll even be eager to cough up basic factoids such phone numbers, his address and place of work. If he isn't giving up this kind of info, then he doesn't want you tracking him down -- or he's Batman or Superman. So if he doesn't live at Wayne Manor or the Fortress of Solitude, give it up.

He'll mark his territory. He won't pee on you or anything per se, but he will exhibit some animal behavior. If he's decided he wants you as his female, he won't want to lose you. If there's any chance that you might be snapped up by another male, he'll stake his claim. He'll be tactile with you, slipping an arm around you, possibly posturing and standing up when another guy walks onto the scene. Watch out for some regression to a more primitive man. If you hear grunting, don't panic. It's his way of saying he likes you.

He calls you back. Despite the stereotype, he will call you back. If you're a girl in demand, he won't want you to be the one that got away, so he'll call you to set up the next date or ask how you're doing. If you're getting calls for no reason, that's a good thing. However, you may want to invest in a good phone plan.

He'll check you out. You'll bring out his spy skills in a good way. He'll talk to your friends to get the 411 on you. He wants to know more about you -- your past, your present, your likes and dislikes, water hazards, etc. He's doing his homework because he wants to impress you. He's gathering this intelligence so he knows how best to woo you.

He's flirtatious. Guys get playful around women they like. It's a little dance he's doing around you to show his interest and his daring. However, he's not just being flirty, he's also probing. He's putting on a little show for you to see if you'll reciprocate. The more you play, the more he stays. Now shake that tail feather.

He's always planning ahead. If he digs you, he won't want you getting away from him. To make sure you aren't prey to some other guy, he'll be making plans for the next date before the current one is over. A full calendar is a good sign.

He's attentive. He's been listening to you, and knows what you like and where you like to go. He treats you to your favorite things and places. He'll spring surprises.

He'll blow off his buddies to be with you. It's always tricky managing existing commitments with burgeoning relationships. There are bound to be conflicts of interest at the some point. So take it as a good sign when he'll ditch going out with the boys to see you instead.

Acts of selflessness. He'll take one for the team of you and him. These can be large or small acts. They can be as small as holding your hair back for when you've got stomach flu, or as large as suffering through a Celine Dion concert and pretend he's enjoying it because you're a fan. Now “that's the power of love.”

Okay, he's doing his part, but what about you? You've got him wrapped around your little finger, but don't get cocky. You can lose him in the blink of an eye with a few classic screw-ups.

False Advertising. I understand that we all want to impress a potential new partner. It's in our DNA. Only the fittest survive and only the most interesting get dates. So make yourself interesting, but please don't pretend to be someone you're not. Don't say you were a Dallas Cowboys cheerleader if you weren't. Don't tell him you're a party girl when you're a bookworm. This is a double whammy. First, he'll be POed because he believed your character enhancements. Second, you're not the person he's looking for. If he wants the party girl and you're a bookworm, how long do you think that's going to last? Keep it real, ladies.

You get jealous for no reason. Okay, your previous guy cheated on you. That's a shame, but not all guys are wired the same. So, if your current guy hasn't done anything wrong, then give him the benefit of the doubt. Not even the Dalai Lama is going to put up with being accused of cheating or having you check up on him every five minutes.

The Princess Complex. You've got a nice little thing going on with him, but suddenly it's all about you and not about the two of you. Who died and made you queen?

Letting yourself go. You were a dynamite package with you two starting dating, but the backless cocktail dresses and Jimmy Choos have been replaced by moo-moos and flip-flops. Just because you've hooked your dream guy doesn't mean you can take your foot off the gas. If you don't care about your appearance, don't expect him to.

Taking it too fast. It's easy to get carried away with that guy in your life. You want to be with him every minute of the day, you think you should move in together and a summer wedding would be wonderful. That's all super -- as long as he's just as keen. If he sees you streaking ahead of him, he'll be making a U-turn, so watch your speed, Danica.

##im out##

aku terlupa..

dah lame giler rasenyer tak layan blog.. sampai aku dah terlupa password n tak dapat log in.. sampai kena reset password baru.. baru2 ni sebab bosan sgt.. aku start masuk chat room.. guess which chat room i visited? hihihi.. I visited "kampung".. so mula lah proses berchatting dgn strangers from all over malaysia.. ade juga satu dua foreigner yg tersangkut kat sana.. hehe.. terase macam umur aku 13 tahun plak.. coz tht was the last time i entered chatroom ni..so i chatted with few guys and girls and found it not much different from the last time i used it.. tapi aku 'terjumpa' seorang mamat ni.. dia pakai nick name "E".. talking to E buat aku terlupa tentang quotation harga yang perlu aku submit a.s.a.p (padahal client dah asyik msg phone aku tak henti2).. and buat aku terlupa dgn kebosanan.. E is a nice guy.. he was very decent n polite through out the conversation and then we added each other in ym.. so lepas tu aku dah tak masuk "kampung" lagi..

*selama dua hari berchatting ngan E aku rase.. E ni seorang yg perahsia.. sume bende dia taknak bagi tau.. tanye bday bile pun taknak bagi tau.. keje ape pun dia tak ckp.. same ade he is very secretive or he has trust issue towards people.. tu aku tak pasti.. tapi yg pasti aku tak tanye soalan yg personal kat dia..aku layan je lah... dia taknak bagi tau pun takpe.. bukannye aku nak tau sgt.. just wanna create some conversation between us.. hari ni dia tak online plak.. maybe bz or too tired..

**now..let me update the story of mr brainy.. dia dah kahwin.. dah ade anak pun.. kantoi kat shopping mall ngan mummy.. nasib baik dia tak kenal mummy.. so selambe je dia lalu kat depan mummy ngan wife n baby dia.. bile aku tanye dia ckp.."mane ade kahwin.. mane u dpt idea ni?" hihihihihi selambe je kan ayat dia.. tapi mmg nampak jelas dia menipu time tu..so lepas tu aku dah tak contact dia lagi.. bile dia call aku layan tapi aku dah tak mula kan lagi.. last nite we went out for dinner.. mulanya dia call for no reason like always.. pastu ajak pegi dinner, bile aku ckp takde kereta.. dia ckp..." i'll pick u up.." so aku pun get ready n he picked me up.. we went to korean restaurant kat tesco yg baru bukak.. the food was good tapi dia tak suka plak.. maybe ape yg dia order tu tak best kot.. ape yg aku makan cam sedap je.. then dah makan.. kite org pegi satu cafe lagi.. sbb sebelum pegi korean restaurant tu kite org lalu kat depan cafe tu.. its a pancake cafe.. smtg similar mcm pancake restaurant yg kat sunway pyramid tu.. so bile lalu kat situ aku ni ckplah.. "eh ade cafe baru.. jom kite cuba".. then he suggested kite org pegi after makan kat korean restaurant..so i agreed.. but in my mind, i was confirmed, takkan makan ape2 lagi after the korean restrn.. tapi layan je lah mamat ni.. kalau nak balik pun bukan bleh.. aku tak drive.. so after dinner we went there.. pancake cafe.. ade segale macam makanan kat dunia ni.. chicken chop, lamb chop, fish n chip, soups and alot more things.. yg takde satu je.. guess what?.. PANCAKE.. hahahaha.. serious ni.. pancake je yg takde.. so mr brainy tanye ngan waiter tu.. kate pancake house mane pancake nyer.. nape takde dalam menu? dia ckp 'ooo yg tu kite belom buat lagi'.. so ended up kite org minum mocha n cappucino je..hihihihi bleh percaye tak? kedai pancake takde jual pancake..

***so tu lah cerita ape yg terjadi malam tadi.. igtkan ade sessi makan pancake tapi hampeh.. pancake belom mula di jual..huhuhuhu..

##im out##

I've failed badly in my Management paper..

rase macam kosong je dunia aku ni.. takde ape2, takde sape2.. yang ade cume aku je.. sorang2.. aku mencari ape yang hilang? ape yang kurang? kawan-kawan ke?, duit ke? atau cuma kurang activity.. jadi bosan.. sebab tu rase macam kosong.. tibe2 aku pikir, mungkin dah tiba masa untuk aku masuk level yang baru.. u knw.. like new phase of life..tukar semuanye..buat bende yang tak pernah buat..belajar bende baru, kenal orang baru..n start biznes baru.. haha.. start biznes baru tu macam susah sketlah pasal keadaan economy yg mendung cam cuaca kat Malaysia gak..anyway..hari ni aku terpikir.. umur dah meningkat.. banyak bende aku belom belajar, banyak bende aku tak tau.. meeting ngan client ari ni buat aku realise.. ade lagi bende yang aku tak aware dalam biznes ni.. theres alot3 more to learn n to explore..n im getting older.. n suddenly terkeluar soalan untuk daddy yang same2 pegi meeting ngan aku.. "pa..dah beli rumah ke masa umur 25?" daddy jawab "belum lagi.." n i thought.. kalau daddy bleh survive.. mesti aku pun bleh.. but then.. daddy had different time n evironment..time dunia dah semakin canggih dan banyak cabaran macam ni daddy dah stabil.. he doesnt have to work anymore.. aku plak.. still nowhere in life.. masih struggle to stabilise the biz.. yg agak slow time recession ni.. last time mase study..mase dok pakai duit daddy sampai tak ingat dunia aku lupe sume tentang economic, sume tentang cabaran dunia sekarang..time tu nak spell r.e.c.e.s.s.i.o.n pun aku tak pandai sebab memang tak pernah rase susah.. sekarang bile kena cari duit sendiri.. barulah aku tau..nasib baik ade daddy yang memang superhero aku dari dulu.. datang menyelamat.. bagi semangat.. Thanks Daddy.. U are my SUPERMAN..

*aku realise something.. aku memang tak bagus dalam time management.. ni satu bende yang aku betul2 nak improve.. susah betul bile tak pandai organise mase.. byk mase terbuang tapi tak byk keje siap.. I NEED TO CHANGE..n tibe2 datang plak semangat nak berubah.. menjadi orang yang lebih baik..have better time management.. so im trying it now.. tu new goal yang aku nak capai.. let me tell u honestly.. its hard to change.. its hard to be someone new..believe me.. tapi kite sume perlukan perubahan..thts how we learn.. thts how we grow up if u realise.. aku betul2 kagum dgn orang2 yang boleh berubah.. dengan orang2 yang boleh stick dengan routine harian dio org.. aku mmg confirm tak boleh.. hari2 aku tukar sume bende.. so at the end of the day aku jadi disorganise.. kadang2 meeting penting pun bleh lupa.. nasib baik ade daddy yang sentiase nak ingatkan dan sentiase nak nasihatkan aku.. mmmm.. memang memalukan.. dah tua camni pun masih nak kena nasihat ngan daddy.. tu pun pasal time management aku yang memang confirm hancur lebur.. sesape yang bace ape yang aku tulis ni.. ade tak cara2 nak nak improve time management? bleh kongsi tips sket tak.. i need help..

**kalau bleh nak balik semula ke time belajar kat college.. time yang kite mmg takde responsibility.. pegi class ikut mood..buat assgmnt ikut mood.. study for exam pun ikut mood.. konon2 nyer yang penting pass with flying colours..doesnt matter wat we do to achieve it.. i think its wrong..bende tu actually jadi kebiasaan akhirnye..nak buat sume bende ikut mood.. dah taknak ikut mase yang betul lagi..its really hard to change it.. especially after stay away from home for long time..bile nak kene balik semule ke rumah duduk ngan family balik.. its a real hard thing..tapi kite mmg takleh nak putar balik mase ni.. sesape pun kat dunia ni belom berjaya buat gadget yang bleh putar balik mase.. can delete or undo wat we dont like..sounds like good idea kan? undo or delete wat we dont like..but then..we can no longer use the saying.."manusia memang tak sempurna" kalau sume kite bleh tukar sure kite jadi perfect..mmm..ntah ape2 yang aku merepek ni.. ni sume akibat kekosongan yang aku cakap tadi..dunia aku yang kosong..

*** sekarang ni tibe2 aku rase mengantuk plak.. so nnt2 je lah aku sambung aku nyer merepek ni..now let me dream bout the prince charming (as if its very important).. yang aku tunggu2 tapi tak sampai gak..huhuhu.. good night everyone..

##im out##

sesi makan mcFlurry..

tibe-tibe dia call.. sibuk2 tanye kabar, tanye aku buat ape, kat mane? n.. bawak ape dari penang untuk dia.. (suka hati dia je mintak souvenir..) belum sempat jawab dia dah ckp lagi.."u ade incoming call..i'll call u back k.." n aku pun.."ya..ok..bye"..thts how he ended the call everytime.. so i aku igt mmg mamat ni takkan call aku balik.. tibe-tibe..pukul 9 malam dia call..(dalam hati aku ckp apa hal mamat ni? selalu tak igt nak call balik..) dia tanye lagi.."u katne? buat ape? oo dah sampai umah..im on my way pegi bayar bil telepon.." sibuk2 nak bagi tau tanpe perlu di soal siasat..hihihihi..aku pikir lagi..(something is wrong..but wat is it?..then pikir punye pikir.. aku dapat jawapan.. he is wrong..hihihihi not something.. tak tau ape angin yang melanda, bawak dia kat aku..) then dia ckp lagi ayat tu.. kali ni ubah sket je.."u..ade road block..i'll call u back".. aku pun kate.."oo..really? ok then..bye".. masih lagi berpikiran yang dia tak mungkin akan call balik.. tapi kali ni aku tak berape nak kisah sangat.. coz firstly memang dah banyak kali dia buat camni..so im used to it..n secondly..dah takde ape nak ckp pun.... then after 15 mins.. there he was.. calling me again.. dia cakap kali ni.. "u..jom makan mc flurry..ur fav kan?" aik..tibe-tibe je mamat ni..aku pun selambe je ckp.. "u tipu kan?".."main2 je kan?".. he replied.. "no lah. tak main2 ni.. im serious..jomlah.. i dah park my car.. tunggu u ni.. come fast k.." and he hung up..then 15 mins later..i was there in Mc Donald's.. belum sempat say hallo to him.. datang satu uncle ni.. mmg dah lama kenal.. tibe2 dia nampak aku n straight away menyape.. "hey..ape kabar?" n i was like.. "hey uncle..im fine..how r u?" n this guy.. looked confused.. then aku kenalkan lah..since org tu (uncle) dah duduk semeja tanpe dipelawe.."uncle..ni Mr brainy..n Brainy this is Uncle.." guess wat uncle replied to me.. "oh..brainy.. baguslah..finally u have found someone.." aku macam nak menjerit masa tu.. si brainy ni lak dok sengih2 mcm kerang.. then aku ckp.. "ni kawan i je uncle..takde ape2 pun.." si uncle bz body ni lak ckp.. "alah nak tunggu ape lagi?..si siti (anak uncle) tu dah nak kawin bulan 12 ni.. kalau dah suka tu takyah pikir lama2.. ok lah ni.." hihihihi bagus je ayat dia kan.. muka aku dah merah giler aku rase.. dalam hati nasib baik tak pakai blusher tadi.. dah ade blusher yg original..hihihi.. pastu dia siap bagi tau si brainy.. "uncle dah kenal ayah dia ni dah lama.. mase kite org bujang2 dulu"..aku plak tertanye2.. ape motif si uncle ni..bagi tau sejarah sume kat mamat ni..

*nak menyelamatkan keadaan.. aku pun tanye.."uncle buat ape kat sini.. lambat gak balik umah ek?.. " dah tu barulah dia teringat tujuan asal dia pegi McD.. "uncle nak jumpe org.." n org tu pun luckily sampai time tu jugak.. so uncle pun blah.. nak tau dia duduk mane?..hihihi...sebelah meja aku je.. bengang gak ngan uncle yg dah kawan ngan daddy sejak zaman bujang dia ni.. tapi ape nak buat.. daddy aku blom beli Mc'D tu lagi.. so aku takleh nak suruh dia pegi jauh sket.. so aku n Mr brainy.. berbual2.. pretend macam Mr. Uncle takde kat situ.. then pukul 12 lebih dia cakap nak balik.. nak pegi main pool ngan member dia plak..padahal muka dia tunjuk muka ngantuk.. aku pun ckp.."ni dah nampak mengantuk pun nak pi main pool gak.." dia sengih je.. pastu ckp.. "mmg ngantuk.. tapi nak pegi gak.. skejap je.." aku replied.."mcm penting sgt.. betul ke main pool ni?" hihihihihi si mamat ni tibe2 jadi serious.." betul, nak main pool je.. sumpah tak tipu".. siap bersumpah lagi.. aku tak ckp pun aku tak caye kat dia.. cume tanye je betul ke tak nak main pool..

**so.. itulah dia cerite Mr brainy.. yg tibe2 call n berbaik2 ngan aku.. aku cube pikir-pikir balik.. ape yang dia nak sebenarnye.. tapi sampai sekarang tak dpt jawapan.. ntah ape yang dia nak.. pastu aku teringat kat cik adik sorang ni..(my lil' cusin) yg selalu ckp.. "takyah call dia.. tapi kalau dia call layan je. so aku pun layan je lah.."

***sesungguhnya cume tuhan je yang tau ape motif mamat ni.. n aku harap takdelah yg bukan2.. maybe dia nak kawan je.. teman makan McFlurry..hihihi..

##im out##

he is lying..

im so confused r8 now.. why would a guy lie to me wen i dont do anytg to him.. u knw just call me and lie.. whether he is a psycho or im just too naive or stupid until someone can actually call n lied to me.. i didnt catch him red handed lying to me. i just GUESS tht he was lying.. gosh.. wat type of guy is tht.. a friend told me "maybe this guy just wanna impress u".. but by lying or cheating?.. if he happens to read this..( whatever u did is so not impressive!!).. and wat make me write bout him today.. i like this guy.. i just like him since the first time i saw him.. didnt expect this type of behaviour from him.. so thts it.. im planning to just forget bout him.. just dont wanna call or text anymore.. do whatever u want man!! im no longer interested.. im no longer attracted to you.. (thnx to my not so lil's cousin who actually be my brain n make me think properly).. mmm.. it makes me wonder.. does guys do this all the time? lying? their so called 'white lies' are just unacceptable in my dictionary.. i prefer to hear the truth though the truth hurts.. but i prefer tht instead of being cheated..

*then theres another guy.. this is a psycho (im so sure bout it!!).. this is his msg to me today:

"if u regards me as your friend we can meet, you look beautiful with the cover (referring to the scarf im wearing), if you uncover will it be more attractive, or.." thts all.. i dont really get it.. wat does he meant? so i replied to him : "hi mr *** if u wanna be friend with me please respect me coz i dont need this type of shit from you".. hows tht? hihihihi i knw its super rude.. i think he deserves it.. now he replied.." i respect you thts why i appreciate ur beauty.. alamak.. people are not allowed to praise? i never ask bout sex..maybe u just misunderstood my statement.." mmm wat do i say.. guys are dumb sometimes.. actually most of the time.. they just dont knw wat is the right thing to say n the right thing to do..

**then come back to this guy.. who lied to me.. let me call him mr brainy.. since he think he is super duper smart.. he is very smart actually.. he taught me alot bout biz.. thts why i was attracted to him in the first place.. but then maybe he is trying too hard to impress me without knowing tht im actually already impressed and attracted to him without him even trying.. u knw wat i mean?.. attracted to him for wat he is, not for his money or any other ability.. (including his ability to lie..) someone else told me "maybe he lied to get ur attention.. to be emotionally attached to u.." (he lied bout being sick, really really sick)..now this is an opinion from a guy.. so basically.. this is how they think.. how their brain works..lie to get attention.. mmm..in this matter i have to be fair.. even women does tht.. lie to get attention.. wat bout emotionally attached? he wants me to feel sympathy? or wat? the truth is i just dont know.. i wish i can ask him straight wen i see him.. "were u lying to me all this while? " hows tht? hihihiihihihihi.. im so sure he wont be able to answer me..

*** so tht is the thing thts been bugging me all these while.. (guys guys.. wats wrong with u all..) they are so complicated..n they go around telling people women are complicated..

##im out##

i'm done..

im done with my jogging..(again..its in my dream).. im actually done setting up this blog thingy... thought of goin home but still attached to this thing..and im waiting for this guy who actually ask me to wait for him coz he wanna talk to me.. so here i am writing crap n waiting for the guy.. i can see from the window in my office, the sun is setting down.. finishing its duty for the day.. while im still here.. procrastinating.. not doin' anything..

* sometimes i think someone has put a spell on me or in my office, so tht i become lazy n dont wanna do my job.. (its just a lame excuse to get rid of the guilty feeling of procrastinating..) but its kinda true.. im so excited to go to office.. but wen im here im not doing anytng..other than this... writing crap n browsing around.. n before im off to home i'll tell my self to get everytning done tmrw.. n wen tmrw come.. guess what? i'll wait for the next day to come.. i guess this is wat i do best.. PROCRASTINATING.. i wonder whether all working people are like this.. excited to go to work.. but then not doin their job properly.. or not get it done at all..do they give excuses? or they just dont bother? how many percent of working people out there who actually committed to their job n doin it whole-heartedly.. i guess we all have our own purposes or plans everytime we step out of the house.. u knw.. like to really working or just to get rid of the people in the house..

*mmm..let hope now.. wen tmrw come.. i'll really will get my work done n be a better person.. i think i should suggest to my parents to send me to the military school o some sort of course .. so tht i'll be disciplined...

(LETS HOPE THEY DONT DO BLOGGING N DONT READ THIS.. IM SO NOT GOIN TO THE MILITARY SCHOOL!!!)..

##im out##

i'm jogging..

im suppose to jog now..and im jogging.. hihihi..(in my dream).. pegi jogging 2 ari pastu lima ari tak jogging langsung..and im suppose to diet tapi dah 2 malam lepak kat mc donald..great recipe to kip fit (fat!!)..and im so new in this blogging thing..(introduced by my lil' cousin, i guess she's not so lil' anymore since she starts blogging..) and im so sure she is addicted to this thing now..(ca study ca..buat thesis ca..!!!) dont blog around..hohoho..

*and im so confused r8 now until i dont even know if im actually writing bout her or bout me.. whatever it is.. thnx my not so lil' cousin.. for introducing this thing to me..which im very sure im gonna get addicted to it just like the way im addicted to facebook..

*actually im so bloody bored over here..thts why im addicted to all these thing in the computer and tht is why i cant stop writing here too.. the laptop is like my soulmate, my best friend, my life partner, my significant half or whatever u call the thing tht u cant leave in life..

***so basically...im screwed.. r8?

##im out##